New Year!..in Floripa

New Year..shifted to Floripa....its beautiful here....this place has one of the best beaches ..the best people (so far!!)...its amazing...here are some pictures to entice you to this side of the world!

He is the funniest!

Preparing to go!..or not...

Getting ready to visit my home...not feeling up to it...isnt it strange?...tho its trrible lonely here sometimes...but ..all the diplomacies and artificialness of staying with my in-laws really perturbes me....wonder how it'll be...

going after one year...really miss my parents sometimes...choke-up missing kinds..but...hmmm....

its not like my in-laws are horrible people..they're nice actually..(inspite of the sometimes typical MIL-kind behaviour of my MIL)...thing is i dont like what i become over there...the artificialness is what gets to me...the inability to do what i want to do when i want to do...trying to keep everyone happy..and everybdy just seems to want a piece of u....so emotionally draining...husband says its the one time in a whol year...the one time..and these holidays are for them..parents above everything else ..etc etc.but then when is my time out...why the f do i have to adjust and not him...he says thats how its bin fr 300 years....unfortunately women have had to sacrifice more...we have to go to his house first and then to mine..he doesnt want to stay at my parents house(says it'll be very strange fr him)...but i will definitely have to stay in his...wht the hell is society like this...havnt things changed one bit...isnt this the age of the "modern"goddamn woman!!!!!!!

not like he's forcing me ..in fact he said...whatver u think is gud fr u do that!...but easier said than done isnt it...unfortunately my parents didnt teach me to put self first...wish they had...keep thinkin what will his mother think..wot will his father say!...gawd!...guess will have to go to his parents house and then fr some time to mine...wish life wasnt full of compromises!..mine just seems to have too many of them!

Love this song!

The Corporate...

why has everything in life become about corporations?!...everywhere i see...from things i eat to things i wear and use and drive and places i go to and the medicines i take ..the planes i take...the trips i make ...the hotels i stay in...everything is bieng controlled by some corporation or other!...and why is it such a pain to work in one!..the petty mindedness of people workin at higher positions..the success of the undeserving..the winning of deciet!....hmm.....maybe im not doing to well on the "being positive" department! :)

The "Secret"!

life has come to a crossroads...trying hard to be positive..saw on oprah sometime back about wearing optimism bands (or some such..) on the hand...which means having only +ve thoughts thuout the day..not sayin or even thinkin nything -ve!!>....impossible fr me...but i'm trying....a firm believer of "the secret"...i have become....so ....fingers crossed!...

Demise of a Butterfly!

I know the topic of this post sounds really macabre...actually it really grossed me out writing it....but today a strange...strange thing happened!...i saw a dead ...lifeless butterfly lying on the sidewalk!....can u imagine my shock and horror...i mean...there it was...this beautiful orange and black hued-winged butterfly...lying there...stone -dead....it was such a strange sight...it got me thinking...do butterflies and insects just drop dead like this...what could have caused it to collapse like this...a flash streak of lightning (it had been raining earlier today..so ...im not completely off my rockers and this doesnt sound THAT..improbable...ok..maybe it was sitting on something that was struck by lightning!)...but i digress....my question and wonderment was about how insects pass away (attempt at making this post less insane)...do they just wither away...highly unlikely...or do they have strokes (my really really miniscule knowldge of zoology limits me...yes that much i know...its not botany!)...anybody out there...knows?