Just back from "Pari"!!!

we have just come back from Paris....yeyyy!!yes yes it was amazing...yes it was so purtieeeh!!!!and yes it was cold..in Feb!!!!!....the worst was evidently over in Jan or so our hostess said...if Feb was warm i wonder wot cold wld be like...and no ..wld not like to experience it...hate hate cold...tho used to love delhi winters..still do....but somehow the winters outside of delhi seem dull,,,heartless and depressing.....specially in d phoren lands...i have come to love the always breezy ...always sunny...always nice weather of brazil.....ohhh the monsoons r here...ppl all arnd me hate the rains...i luuuurvvvvve them....i rmrbr the last time i was sitting in my grandma's house..on the huge terrace..with a ghazal playing on the old LP player...i was just sitting on the floor getting drenched in the most delicious skin soaking fresh smelling monsoon rain.....ohhhh that moment,.....ive never quite enjoyed rains like that again...except once maybe when i dragged D during a rainy day on one of our pre-marriage...ritual weekend walks in the huge wild park near my house...it was raining ...there were trees all around..vrything was bloomin green..he was holdin an umbrella above us...and we found a bench and sat there for quite some time..sharin soft kisses and enjoying the rain....hmmm.....

NYyyyyeeways...yes...paris...to tell u the truth i didnt like it THATTTT much...u knw i was ready to be swept off my feet...i mean its PARIIIS!!...but maybe coz we didnt hav time...or maybe we were too touristy...n didnt enjoy strollin so much...of course it is the prettiest city i hv ever visited...n the streets r beautiful...but dunno....something was missin....i did take soem awesome pics....puttin up some of them...

Wy is the wrld so **$# up?

Read a story today abt the rape of a lil girl ...just 8 yrs old!....pleaseee!...why is the world so screwed up!!!!..hv all men lost it...things like these really question my faith in god sometimes...i mean...if god existed how cld he allow these things?...what gud will come out of it dammit!...my eyes filled up reading the story on a news site...she was just a sweet baby...i mean...how cld anythign abt her hv bin sexual!...n why dnt govnmts have capital or life punishment for rape! i mean what cld be worse in life...than the robbing of ur dignity..ur self respect....ur peace of mind...forever !...murder is so much easier but rape is like maiming a person's soul forever!...

i rmbr growin up...the occassional incidents of eve teasing...the winking...i rmbr once i had gone to get a photograph taken in a fairly well known studio...i was barely 15 and my father had gone with me...the studio was on 1st floor whereas the shop or counter whatvr was downstairs...so he stopped there to make the payments...i ddint think twice and went with the photographer upstairs...he asked to remove my specs...then he came across to where i was sitting uncaring ...thinkin abt my homework..and starting adjusting my sweater...i rmbr being a lil alrmed...but i thoght ..big deal...must be a perfectionist..then i felt a very slight touch on my chest...i jumped back involuntarily...shocked...he mustve come to his senses or gotten scared...he went back hastily behind the tripod and took my passport photo and we went downstairs....thing is....only after coming home did i realise what had hhpned....i DIDNT even realise what he had been trying to do!!!!!...i was so stupid!...and so full of regret!...i kept imagining scenes of shouting at him...getting him fired...i even thought of going back and sounding him off...but i thoght of my father...he wld be upset...he wld feel horrible..and that he might do somethign to tat horrible man....i just let it go!...i let it go!!!!!!...i have never forgiven myslef fr that...maybe if i had done something ...he wldve bin scared to do it again...but i didnt!....

this is so lil comprd to what happens to women ...the crimes committed againt them vryday...but so many of us choose to remain silent..to ignore it....

i just wanted to write this..to let ny woman reading know...that next time someone tries to molest u...hit back!...HIT that sonofab back HARD!

And I will never be set free.....

One of those beautiful wispy cotton puffs whirling in the sky days....uuummmmmmmmmmm.....

i am getting fat!!

i used to sneer at women obssessed with eating habits...used to laugh at people doing various diets...till late 20's and early 30's happened!....oh my gawd...life has never been the same...i completely undtsnd what all the pppl were obsessing abt...yes...i too can ...and AM getting fat....i always had the rule...if i fit into my old jeans ..doesnt matter,..but alas...the slow progression of growin out of of that pair...was something i never became aware of...or maybe i was sub consciously trying to avoid!...

every day i tell myself today i will do yoga...today i will go for a walk!....but...lethargy is addictive,....i switch on my comp and dunno where the time goes!!!!!.....but no....i will be resolute...

TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY!! yay!!!

ohh gawd...another day!!

gets me vrytime..

some of the cheap limericks which my wide-eyed 7 year old cousin used to recite forcefully ..when we visited them during my summer holidays..i was in 10th in school then...very impressionable age .some say

dekh upar taraa chamke...
dekh upar taraa chamke...
...
...
woh dekh neeche tera naada lamke

some which my hubby remembers from his innocence-filled, harmless childhood days...

there was a man from madras
he had balls made of brass
when he ate a lot one night
lightening shot out of his arse

Thank You...

Just read something and felt like writing this...dunno if they'll ever read this...but just wanted to put it out...

Thank you Mummy Papa,

For the amazing amount of sacrifices you made to make me what I am today.
For the way you fought with a world and society where having a daughter is considered a liability
For believing in me...trusting me...sometimes even when I didnt stand upto it
For putting your children before anything else..
For trying to protect us against the world and sometimes even against ourselves
For not reciprocating and for taking all the teenage angst I threw at you
For bearing with the mean things I may have said in my absolute and complete stupidities
For saving when everything else failed
For being my last resort ...always
For making me study harder at school and college
For making me believe I could do a lot better everytime
For understanding my mood swings and putting up with them
For accepting D without any hang-ups, inspite of the different background
For throwing such a beautiful wedding, which cost you your savings
For facing the issues of 'gifting' during my marriage, even though it was everything against what we have grown up on and been taught to believe by you
For not only facing them but doing it with love just to make me happy
For boundlessly loving your son-in-laws without ever asking for the same level of love in return
For being socially politically correct..always being a little more polite to your samdhins..(ohhh!!hateful!!).
Inspite of my continued objections... continuing to give them gifts all the time...calling more times...way more than you get in return..even in terms of thank you calls
For continually worrying about my well-being...
For still advising me on everything...much needed
For loving unconditionally always, never demanding anything back, for being my pillars

Aamir Khan's blog...

Did "y'all" know that Aamir Khan writes a blog!..and a gud one too!!...check out the link!!....read some interesting bloggin there!

http://www.aamirkhan.com/blog.htm