He is the funniest!

Preparing to go!..or not...

Getting ready to visit my home...not feeling up to it...isnt it strange?...tho its trrible lonely here sometimes...but ..all the diplomacies and artificialness of staying with my in-laws really perturbes me....wonder how it'll be...

going after one year...really miss my parents sometimes...choke-up missing kinds..but...hmmm....

its not like my in-laws are horrible people..they're nice actually..(inspite of the sometimes typical MIL-kind behaviour of my MIL)...thing is i dont like what i become over there...the artificialness is what gets to me...the inability to do what i want to do when i want to do...trying to keep everyone happy..and everybdy just seems to want a piece of u....so emotionally draining...husband says its the one time in a whol year...the one time..and these holidays are for them..parents above everything else ..etc etc.but then when is my time out...why the f do i have to adjust and not him...he says thats how its bin fr 300 years....unfortunately women have had to sacrifice more...we have to go to his house first and then to mine..he doesnt want to stay at my parents house(says it'll be very strange fr him)...but i will definitely have to stay in his...wht the hell is society like this...havnt things changed one bit...isnt this the age of the "modern"goddamn woman!!!!!!!

not like he's forcing me ..in fact he said...whatver u think is gud fr u do that!...but easier said than done isnt it...unfortunately my parents didnt teach me to put self first...wish they had...keep thinkin what will his mother think..wot will his father say!...gawd!...guess will have to go to his parents house and then fr some time to mine...wish life wasnt full of compromises!..mine just seems to have too many of them!

Love this song!

The Corporate...

why has everything in life become about corporations?!...everywhere i see...from things i eat to things i wear and use and drive and places i go to and the medicines i take ..the planes i take...the trips i make ...the hotels i stay in...everything is bieng controlled by some corporation or other!...and why is it such a pain to work in one!..the petty mindedness of people workin at higher positions..the success of the undeserving..the winning of deciet!....hmm.....maybe im not doing to well on the "being positive" department! :)

The "Secret"!

life has come to a crossroads...trying hard to be positive..saw on oprah sometime back about wearing optimism bands (or some such..) on the hand...which means having only +ve thoughts thuout the day..not sayin or even thinkin nything -ve!!>....impossible fr me...but i'm trying....a firm believer of "the secret"...i have become....so ....fingers crossed!...

Demise of a Butterfly!

I know the topic of this post sounds really macabre...actually it really grossed me out writing it....but today a strange...strange thing happened!...i saw a dead ...lifeless butterfly lying on the sidewalk!....can u imagine my shock and horror...i mean...there it was...this beautiful orange and black hued-winged butterfly...lying there...stone -dead....it was such a strange sight...it got me thinking...do butterflies and insects just drop dead like this...what could have caused it to collapse like this...a flash streak of lightning (it had been raining earlier today..so ...im not completely off my rockers and this doesnt sound THAT..improbable...ok..maybe it was sitting on something that was struck by lightning!)...but i digress....my question and wonderment was about how insects pass away (attempt at making this post less insane)...do they just wither away...highly unlikely...or do they have strokes (my really really miniscule knowldge of zoology limits me...yes that much i know...its not botany!)...anybody out there...knows?

Right here right now..

the new years eve is coming soon....just makes me think about the time I came to brazil...which was about three years back...a lot has changed since then...i would like to talk about my first impressions n the first few months...but tats abother post...this one is about right now...so now i´m sittin here ....in the school where i teach !!(teach!....i had never imagined three years back that i would ever teach in my life!!)_....

im sittin in the ´´resource centre´´ of the school...where there r a row of comps n books n DVDs...n students ..read smartly dressed, loaded, overworked employees slave to thier companies(as this is an english school catering to a corporate crowd)..something I used to be (except for the loaded and smartly dressed part)...

i´´m ok with this job..actually...its like a good timepass thing for me....coz..there r no real wins n no real losses...but the money is ok...plus the work one has to do for it is miniscule....compared to workin like a dog six days a week 8 to 9!!..for slightly more money.....

the only thing i used to hate about it though was when I listened to all these daily cribs n bitchings by my co-workers about students...about coordiantors...abt the pay..i used to think .cmmon...how tough is your life...!...this is nothing!!

but thinking abt it now...it does seem that mediocrity really overwhelms you..i dont mean to say that what im doing is mediocre but whatever level one is at...the troubles and pettiness of that is a black hole which can suck u in...one has to constantly think abt doin soemthing bigger n better...if u stop dreamin..n being ambitious ..not about the next level...but abt something much much beyond...its just the next level where u´ll ever reach...

i dont know if what i wrote made sense...n looks like i´ve digressed big time from what i had started to write about...but what the heck..this is what blogs r for!!!...run of the mill thoughts!!

A Strange Trilogy!

I admit...I'm materialistic...n not mere materialism ..materialism for something as "trivial" as shoes!!

I luvvvhh shoes...n bags...and those gorgeous classy ..well-fitting clothes...i'm not the kind of person though who can guiltlessly spend money on them..or can afford to.....usually search for those lovely low priced designer rip-off shops n bazaars....wowh!...there is one such market which I found in Sao Paulo...called Jose Paulinho.....Paradise on earth is what I call it!...:D..

these set of pics r not really related to this...but something I do when I'm waiting for a metro..or a bus...or my hubby to pick me up......

My Love for Ceramics

I like ceramic pots and pans......! There is something beautiful about a solid white ceramic baking dish!

I finally bought one....hubby insists he saw it first....but I think we both know who deserves the accolades....

This was the my take on Ratatouille.....the first thing I baked in this beautiful dish!!

Pizza Nite!

Margeritha n Pomodoro- the best combo ever!...basil, black olives, fresh ripe oven baked tomatoes and cheese crusting ...oozing with deliciousness!

The best pizza indaawhorld!!!!!!!!!....I like it with crushed black pepper on top and a touch of mindblowing brazillian spicy red chilli chutney. Alongwith a glass of orange juice.

Me n hubby hog on it on any Friday we can manage!

There is also a painting in the resturant which I like.

Cookin up a Salgite~

Recently watched Oprah..yes..I'm one of those people who watch Oprah!.....anyways...this show talked about eating oily fishes as one of the sure shot ways to livin till you have fake teeth, tranplanted hair, botoxed face and lipo`ed belly. Which is what..... 40?!

Well, nonethless I have started a new éating healthy lifestyle..where I willingly munch on nything green in sight. As a part of this venture I made salmon and guacamole (christened salgite..by me) last weekend. Here are some pictures for anyone interested.

A Smoky Day

Its one of those days.

Fog and mist outside. Windy.

The dewy leaves of my potted plants are quivering outside.

Everything looks wet and draped in blue mist.

Beautiful.

Sunny days are over rated.

I so love this weather.

I'm sitting right now enveloped in a warm blanket. Just had some warm breakfast and am now sipping a dreamy fragrant camomile.

Perfect.