I'd rather be here right now..

Standing in an original-tiled balcony with a black wrought iron hand crafted grill, in a sprawling old rustic villa (equipped with all modern plumbin n toilet facilities..no em not sooooo adventurous!) ....shadowed by tall leafy trees, overlooking the beautiful green mounds of Tuscany...hmmmmm...

trekking towards the snow-capped peaks of patagonia...with looong stops inbetween beside serene crystal-clear, bluest blue sky reflecting lakes....amply covered with sturdy AAand designer warm jackets (looking like how them european women look... FASHIONable even when wearing 5 inch thick jackets and yeti-fur snow boots!!)

sitting..no lying down...ON my tummy in a cushy n comfortable reclining beach chair...or bed..whtvr....under the breezy shadowes of palm trees ....(sans ny danger of fallin fruits or droppings) on a white lonely sandy beach with azure....yes....azhhhure ..clear (coral/fish-spotting clear kind) waters...with aromatic natural oils being gently massaged into my glowing skin by soft hands (preferably female...wnt hv too much peace of mind with d other gender!)....
with a tall glass of iced lime juice (spruced wit somethin infinitely more potent)....ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

off to drink something....all this fantasising is way too much for me...

Just back from "Pari"!!!

we have just come back from Paris....yeyyy!!yes yes it was amazing...yes it was so purtieeeh!!!!and yes it was cold..in Feb!!!!!....the worst was evidently over in Jan or so our hostess said...if Feb was warm i wonder wot cold wld be like...and no ..wld not like to experience it...hate hate cold...tho used to love delhi winters..still do....but somehow the winters outside of delhi seem dull,,,heartless and depressing.....specially in d phoren lands...i have come to love the always breezy ...always sunny...always nice weather of brazil.....ohhh the monsoons r here...ppl all arnd me hate the rains...i luuuurvvvvve them....i rmrbr the last time i was sitting in my grandma's house..on the huge terrace..with a ghazal playing on the old LP player...i was just sitting on the floor getting drenched in the most delicious skin soaking fresh smelling monsoon rain.....ohhhh that moment,.....ive never quite enjoyed rains like that again...except once maybe when i dragged D during a rainy day on one of our pre-marriage...ritual weekend walks in the huge wild park near my house...it was raining ...there were trees all around..vrything was bloomin green..he was holdin an umbrella above us...and we found a bench and sat there for quite some time..sharin soft kisses and enjoying the rain....hmmm.....

NYyyyyeeways...yes...paris...to tell u the truth i didnt like it THATTTT much...u knw i was ready to be swept off my feet...i mean its PARIIIS!!...but maybe coz we didnt hav time...or maybe we were too touristy...n didnt enjoy strollin so much...of course it is the prettiest city i hv ever visited...n the streets r beautiful...but dunno....something was missin....i did take soem awesome pics....puttin up some of them...

Wy is the wrld so **$# up?

Read a story today abt the rape of a lil girl ...just 8 yrs old!....pleaseee!...why is the world so screwed up!!!!..hv all men lost it...things like these really question my faith in god sometimes...i mean...if god existed how cld he allow these things?...what gud will come out of it dammit!...my eyes filled up reading the story on a news site...she was just a sweet baby...i mean...how cld anythign abt her hv bin sexual!...n why dnt govnmts have capital or life punishment for rape! i mean what cld be worse in life...than the robbing of ur dignity..ur self respect....ur peace of mind...forever !...murder is so much easier but rape is like maiming a person's soul forever!...

i rmbr growin up...the occassional incidents of eve teasing...the winking...i rmbr once i had gone to get a photograph taken in a fairly well known studio...i was barely 15 and my father had gone with me...the studio was on 1st floor whereas the shop or counter whatvr was downstairs...so he stopped there to make the payments...i ddint think twice and went with the photographer upstairs...he asked to remove my specs...then he came across to where i was sitting uncaring ...thinkin abt my homework..and starting adjusting my sweater...i rmbr being a lil alrmed...but i thoght ..big deal...must be a perfectionist..then i felt a very slight touch on my chest...i jumped back involuntarily...shocked...he mustve come to his senses or gotten scared...he went back hastily behind the tripod and took my passport photo and we went downstairs....thing is....only after coming home did i realise what had hhpned....i DIDNT even realise what he had been trying to do!!!!!...i was so stupid!...and so full of regret!...i kept imagining scenes of shouting at him...getting him fired...i even thought of going back and sounding him off...but i thoght of my father...he wld be upset...he wld feel horrible..and that he might do somethign to tat horrible man....i just let it go!...i let it go!!!!!!...i have never forgiven myslef fr that...maybe if i had done something ...he wldve bin scared to do it again...but i didnt!....

this is so lil comprd to what happens to women ...the crimes committed againt them vryday...but so many of us choose to remain silent..to ignore it....

i just wanted to write this..to let ny woman reading know...that next time someone tries to molest u...hit back!...HIT that sonofab back HARD!

And I will never be set free.....

One of those beautiful wispy cotton puffs whirling in the sky days....uuummmmmmmmmmm.....